Frugal Dandies

Let me start of by saying this was a much needed trip for me. I needed to get away and clear my head and if anything can clear your head its God. It was an aamazing trip and my eyes was definately opened to so many lifestyles and luxury's I take for granted. The first day we had a block party in the Projects. My heart broke to see 2 and 3 year olds wandering in the streets with no supervision no loving arms to guide and protect them. I don't know about you but If Reagan gets out of my sight for a second my mommy radar goes into full speed ahead till shes in my sight again. The second day we worked in a homeless shelter what an eye opener I got to talk to many amazing men that had the love of God but no wordly possessions to their name if they can be on fire for God with nothing how can I sit in my house with my possessions and do nothing.The third night was a block party and we went and handed out invited in the middle of the hood very scetchy very scary, but the turnout was worth it.The last night was at impact baptist and for some reason I felt the spirit of the Lord work more this night than anyother. We had 68 salvations and Allot of or youth had a fire set in their hearts for God that was amazing to see.After how badly my hearts been broken the last month or soo this trip healed it just a lil bit .I know it may never be healed completely but every step and everyday helps. I just want to praise God from the rooftops and know that he is moving in amazing ways and I want to be apart of it anyway possible

U'd think the loss of Ethan would get easier with time, but its far from it. I babysat for a friend that had a sweet 1 almost 2 year old little boy and couldn't help but wonder what Ethan would have been like . Allot of people around me are having precious baby boys and while I'm sooo excited and happy for them it hurts so much to know we don't have ethan. I know I'm just an aunt and I probably don't even have a right to grieve this much ,but I just can't help it. I'm just so heartbroken and stressed right now I don't know what to do. My husband wants to get pregnant and have another child and I'm scared to death the thought of being pregnant makes me sick to my stomach in fear. I'm so stressed all I feel like doing is crying and infact that all I've been doin allot of lately. I wish Ethan was here so bad,but he's not and know my sister-in-law and brother-in-law are moved to new york and I know they need there private time to grieve ,yet I can't help but worry about the both of them.Where do I go from here can someone please tell me . I'm at a loss

I've avoided writing about tihs long enough. My sister in law lost her son to a still birth two weeks ago at 27 weeks gestation. This was the hardest most horrible thing I've ever gone through. I've lost lots of loved ones to all kinds of deaths and mourned there loss, but never have I ever felt a pain inside me like I did when i got that call at 4:00 in the morning telling me my nephew was gone. I didn't know that you could actually feel a physical pain from the loss of a loved one but its here and its not weakening any. I got to meet him and hold his precious tiny perfect body in my arms and tell him I love him. I knew he wasn't there but I didn't want to let that angel go. I can say that he has made me the proudest aunt ever and for someone so little he has made such a big impact on this world. I just stop what Im doing allot and just think about him and how much i wanted to spoil him rotten which I was already trying to do before he was even born :) Along with this misscarriage has brought alot of frustration and confusion into my life. I'm blessed to be the mother of a beautful 3 almost 4 year old daughter and me and robert had planned on starting to try this May ,but know I have a huge knot in my stomach that won't go away. I'm so scared on so many levels. I never knew how likely oyu are to have a misscarriage or stillbirth with every pregnancy. I'm scared to death to have to be in my sister-in-laws shoes nad have to go through this again. I'm also hesitant because I dont want to hurt or harm my siterinlaw and brotherinlaw in any shap form or way I love them way to much and think it may be too soon for me to get pregant for their sake. I'm just so confused and lost right now.I just keep praying for God to remove this knot in my stomach when its time for me to have another baby and that when it's time it will be a safe healthy pregnancy and baby. I also Pray that my brother-in-law and sister-in-law get pregnant again when the times right and have an amazingly beautiful healthy perfect baby I can spoil even more thna I wanted to spoil this baby.

O.k so it seems like forever since I've posted on my blog, and I'm ubber excited I remebered my password haha.....


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