It's a Pitty Party Kinda Day

Have you ever had one of those,days,months,years that you just felt like throwing yourself a pity party? We'll I've decided mines today!!! I;m frustrated,tired,broke,and a little mad, and probably my reasons dont even qualify for such emotions ,but I'm just going with them. I'll start with a flashback.... when I was 5 I started having spasms seizures... to this day there still not sure what they we're. My salavary glands would overact, my left hand and left foot would draw in a little and this would last ofr about an hour and at the end of the hour I would throw up. this happened ever other hour... Needless to say I got very sick ,very fast and they got to the point they feed me pure fat thru an I.V to keep me nurished... I traveled all over the u.s got poke proded and stuck every place you can think... finally after 3 years of this Dr. Lindsey(now retired) took me on as a patient even though he didnt see children and tried two medicines with me tegretol and dialaten I took dialatem for ten years and tegretol for over 20 years and its had a lot of lifelong side effects from the meds that I never talk about I just deal with....... I'm a tough cookie,but looking back at my childhood I dont have allot of good memories.....that being said I am not sad bitter mad for myself its for my precious Reagan. Who was diagnosed with Severe Reflux at birth and has had to go thru testing anfter testing and medicine after medicine... I somehow think what I had she got a small dose off and it makes me feel awful. As a mother you dont want your child to go through what you went through, you want them to be perfect and happy. Today while putting drops in my childs eyes for pink eye and watching how well she took them. I had to leave the room and cry. Shes so use to taking medicine and having herself poked and proded from procedures that it really doesn't fase her. while a regular four year old would take two grown men to hold them down. I know shes overall healthy and I know shes a tough cookie ,but i hate that she has to be a tough cookie.I am so blessed beyond measure to have her in my life. she is my joy,my smile in the morning,my kiss goodnight, shes so smart and talented and I know shes going to do amazing things someday, but for know shes my baby girl whom I want to be happy and never have to wipe away a tear, I know that's selfish, but thats just how I'm feeling today.

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Potty Training Woes

O.k so I get that potty training isn't easy. I get it's differen't for everyone, but really,Really!!! SO here's what I've tried....potty training in one day....skittles/mnm's rewards.....Punishment.......talking.....potty watch ....and prob a few other things I just can't thinl of right now... It's been two years and while the potty watch has been the biggest sucess when shes not wearing it its awful so today ( she'll be 4 the 30th) We we're leaving preschool and I begged her to go she said no I don't need to waited till I put her in her carseat and then came the floods...then We go to ballett and I get home ask her to go potty she says no and the floods come again......then she ask me to play her vtech with her and i do and we're playing and i notice the carpet is a darker shade of blue you guessed it ...... I know she knows when to go because while not wearing her panties we never ever have an accindent ,but as soon as she puts anything over that tutu of hers its time to let the dam loose and the floods come.............. I mean I knew this was hard but really.....I'm litereally loosing hair from the stress. If shes not potty trained by september no preschool and she needs preschool. I have gave it over to the Lord and asked for his help, but help or not this is one stressed upset momma. I mean my child is perfect, polite,honest,doesn't have a mean bone in her body this is her only gliche and whhew what a gliche... She'd rather play pee and know she gets in trouble than take 2 minutes out to go potty and come back ......I know to someone who's never potty trained, or had a super quick potty training experience this may seem crazy, but I have cried form stress and feeling like im a failure as a mom so many nights. Is there anyone else out there like me , or am I just one crazy mom!!!!!

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My obssession with Milk Glass

Thank's to my Amazing Mother-in-Law I was introduced into the world of milk glass. She has a huge collection I just oodle over. I love the fact that it's so reto yet modern in every way. I love all the lines curves and textures each piece has yet the clean look the milk glass gives it. So as you can see I'm a fan. We'll I've started my own collection, and wanted to share some of the amazing finds I've found.

The First Piece I found was at an antique store in Stone Mountain,Ga It;s not the thicker milkglass I'm madly in love with ,but I was excited it was only 2.99

I found my next piece in Lawrenceville Flea and Antique I paid 4.99 for it but I love the fact it's a waffle bowl Icecream dish so 50's Era


I found the next two at an Antique Mall in Rome,Ga it's Huge if you ever visit Rome this is my Favorite Antique Mall. I paid $4.99 for the large square one I think it was once used as a planter, but have used it as a cracker dish etc. I paid 2.99 for the small round pedestal one which i find very sleek and awesomely Modern.






Lastly but certainly not least I found two In Dalton when Me and My daughter went to stay a week with my parents. The first piece wa also the thinner milk glass but I got it for $1.00 so I couldn't pass it up. The Second Piece is a Treasure I love the lace around the Rim I found it at Providence Thrift store for $3.99



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Crafty Idea's for a party or shower

So If anyone knows me well you should know I'm a very thrifty person. If it's not on sale and I don't have a coupon for that sale item I usually don't get it. That being said I threw my childhood B.F.F a baby shower. She had like 7 differen't showers, typicall baby decor etc, and I wanted mine to be unique, but I also wanted to buy things I could reuse for My daughters Birthday party and party's I throw in the future. I came up with a Sweet Treats Theme it was like a 50's candy shop. Here's some crafty ideas I used. The Family Dollar store was having a 50% off clearance on all there summer stripped cups bowls etc so I took full advantage. I bought several bowls and misc platters for like $2-3 a piece they had 3 packs of minature buckets in the same color schem for $1.99 and I used those for nuts dip etc.

I also Got 50 Invitations for Free from VistaPrint ,a Free Personalized T-shirt, Personalized Baby Magnet for there Car, and a Personalized Stamp with theirs and the baby's name on it for Christmas again all for free all I had to pay for was shipping.I went with the whole 50's postcard theme and they had this amazing candyshoppe background







I made a Candy Bar by covering a box with paper and placing various glass cups I got at the Dollar tree on it.I bought nostalgic candy in the color scheme of my party. Here's a money saving tip if you need candy of a certain color after easter its all on clearance and they have pink blue,yellow,green..etc





I bought some old record's and covered them with new labels I just cute a circle out of cardstock the same size as the label glued it on got some pill and stick letters and walla custom albums. The said things like "diaper duty blues" "Narcolepsy her I come" "Nates Gurlz" etc. I had one on each table as a centerpiece with a cup full of cotton candy. I also made washcloth lollipops as a centepeice for each cup!!





I made brownies,mini cupcakes,chocolate covered bacon, chips with homeade salsa,finder sandwich's, and my favorite chocolate covered marshmellows ( look like cupcakes)


So there's my party hope it's an inspiration for more crafty fun ideas!!

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Mission Tour 09 with the PULSE

Let me start of by saying this was a much needed trip for me. I needed to get away and clear my head and if anything can clear your head its God. It was an aamazing trip and my eyes was definately opened to so many lifestyles and luxury's I take for granted. The first day we had a block party in the Projects. My heart broke to see 2 and 3 year olds wandering in the streets with no supervision no loving arms to guide and protect them. I don't know about you but If Reagan gets out of my sight for a second my mommy radar goes into full speed ahead till shes in my sight again. The second day we worked in a homeless shelter what an eye opener I got to talk to many amazing men that had the love of God but no wordly possessions to their name if they can be on fire for God with nothing how can I sit in my house with my possessions and do nothing.The third night was a block party and we went and handed out invited in the middle of the hood very scetchy very scary, but the turnout was worth it.The last night was at impact baptist and for some reason I felt the spirit of the Lord work more this night than anyother. We had 68 salvations and Allot of or youth had a fire set in their hearts for God that was amazing to see.After how badly my hearts been broken the last month or soo this trip healed it just a lil bit .I know it may never be healed completely but every step and everyday helps. I just want to praise God from the rooftops and know that he is moving in amazing ways and I want to be apart of it anyway possible

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Loss of Ethan

U'd think the loss of Ethan would get easier with time, but its far from it. I babysat for a friend that had a sweet 1 almost 2 year old little boy and couldn't help but wonder what Ethan would have been like . Allot of people around me are having precious baby boys and while I'm sooo excited and happy for them it hurts so much to know we don't have ethan. I know I'm just an aunt and I probably don't even have a right to grieve this much ,but I just can't help it. I'm just so heartbroken and stressed right now I don't know what to do. My husband wants to get pregnant and have another child and I'm scared to death the thought of being pregnant makes me sick to my stomach in fear. I'm so stressed all I feel like doing is crying and infact that all I've been doin allot of lately. I wish Ethan was here so bad,but he's not and know my sister-in-law and brother-in-law are moved to new york and I know they need there private time to grieve ,yet I can't help but worry about the both of them.Where do I go from here can someone please tell me . I'm at a loss

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The pain of loosing a loved one.

I've avoided writing about tihs long enough. My sister in law lost her son to a still birth two weeks ago at 27 weeks gestation. This was the hardest most horrible thing I've ever gone through. I've lost lots of loved ones to all kinds of deaths and mourned there loss, but never have I ever felt a pain inside me like I did when i got that call at 4:00 in the morning telling me my nephew was gone. I didn't know that you could actually feel a physical pain from the loss of a loved one but its here and its not weakening any. I got to meet him and hold his precious tiny perfect body in my arms and tell him I love him. I knew he wasn't there but I didn't want to let that angel go. I can say that he has made me the proudest aunt ever and for someone so little he has made such a big impact on this world. I just stop what Im doing allot and just think about him and how much i wanted to spoil him rotten which I was already trying to do before he was even born :) Along with this misscarriage has brought alot of frustration and confusion into my life. I'm blessed to be the mother of a beautful 3 almost 4 year old daughter and me and robert had planned on starting to try this May ,but know I have a huge knot in my stomach that won't go away. I'm so scared on so many levels. I never knew how likely oyu are to have a misscarriage or stillbirth with every pregnancy. I'm scared to death to have to be in my sister-in-laws shoes nad have to go through this again. I'm also hesitant because I dont want to hurt or harm my siterinlaw and brotherinlaw in any shap form or way I love them way to much and think it may be too soon for me to get pregant for their sake. I'm just so confused and lost right now.I just keep praying for God to remove this knot in my stomach when its time for me to have another baby and that when it's time it will be a safe healthy pregnancy and baby. I also Pray that my brother-in-law and sister-in-law get pregnant again when the times right and have an amazingly beautiful healthy perfect baby I can spoil even more thna I wanted to spoil this baby.

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Almond Breeze !!!!!

O.k so it seems like forever since I've posted on my blog, and I'm ubber excited I remebered my password haha.....


I want to start of my telling you about a product I absolutely adore!!!! It's called Blue Diamond Almond Breeze. My daughter has a mild lactose soy protein intolerence. Meaning if she drink soymilk,rice milk,goat milk, or regular milk she gets severe diarriah and stomach cramps (nofun at all) I had been giving her calcium infused vitamins but didn't feel it was doing the job, plus she has refluz esophogitis,chronic gastritis,and acid reflux so no juices either. Who wants water or flavored water for breakfast,not me. When I saw this at walmart in the dairy section I said ehh I'll give it a try. I bought it and we loved it instantly. Its made from all natural products and it comes in plain,vanilla,and chocolate(our favorites vanilla). It honestly taste like a milkshake. So if anyone out there is having the same problems we are please try this product it makes all the difference in the world and is very healthy and yummy!!


http://www.bluediamond.com/shop/natural/almondBreeze32.cfm

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